Dear baby girl

My dearest little h,

I get to meet you so very soon, but every moment that stands between then and now seems like forever.   I don’t know just how or when you’ll decide to make your debut, but I know I’ll never forget it. 

I can still remember the first time I saw your brother, I heard him cry and tears welled up in my eyes.  I can’t explain the feelings that overwhelmed every part of me, but perhaps one day you’ll understand.  The doctors put him in your daddy’s arms and brought him close to me.  I melted the first time I saw his face, one eye closed, squinting at the brightness of the room and as your daddy held him up to my face, I breathed him in and placed a kiss on his cheek.  My life changed that day and I can only imagine how your arrival will add to the beauty and mystery that is this life. 

Your daddy is eager to meet you and I know you’ll just adore him, because I do.  He’s the kindest, most loving, most patient man that I know.  Sometimes, I think he’s too patient, but usually, he’s just the right amount, the perfect balance of me.  Also, he’s a softie.  You’ll figure that out soon.  He has the biggest heart and while he is a dreamer, he’s practical and willing to invest the hard work to make things happen.  He is already aware that when it comes to your wardrobe and accessories, he is in serious trouble, but I promised him that we will try to be reasonable.

Your brother  is a wonder.  He’s a kind soul, like his daddy and he doesn’t respond well to tension or frustration.  He’s also the funniest thing around and we have been laughing for the last 2 years, because of him.  He’s a lover and rather fond of his mama, sharing mama will be brand new and it might take some getting used to, but I know he’s really excited to meet you and everyday he rubs my belly and says, “Baba,” which is his attempt at saying  Harper.  He’ll get it.  You’ll probably recognize his voice, because he’s noisy and says hi to you and everyone else about 1,000,000 times a day.  He loves trucks, trains, books, and Toy Story.  I can’t wait for you to meet him and to watch you two be brother and sister.  I loved having brothers, I know you will too.  It might be the most exhausting thing I’ve ever done, but I know that being mommy to both of you will be the best ever. 

I can’t wait to teach you so many important things, like how you don’t really have to match, even though other people might say otherwise and how to stand in front of the ocean and feel the salty sea splashing across your face.  I’ll teach you how to be a lady, not a princess, because princesses tend to be selfish, lazy, and spoiled.  Ladies are lovely both inside and out, their beauty radiates, and they are smart,  capable, and strong, while soft and kind.  We’ll have so much fun having tea parties with vintage tea cups and homemade scones, we can even dig for worms too,  we’ll create beautiful art that makes the world more wonderful, and we’ll laugh and dream and grow.

I know it will be a while before we can do most of those things, but until then, I’ll hold you, love you,  feed you, change your diaper, keep you safe and warm.

We’ll see you soon my little lovely.  

Love,

Mama